As we grow up we reluctantly separate our own personal fact from fiction.

I wanted to live there! I wanted to hang with all of the other water lovers! I wanted to spend every waking minute in ballyhoo with everyone in the neighborhood! I was planning weekly block parties complete with who would bring the potato salad and who would bring the paper plates to the next get-together!
And then bam, reality hit...
I would have been thrown/kicked/vaulted/booed/catapulted/ out of that neighborhood in a New York heartbeat. I am not made to live within close knit quarters.
At some point I realized that all of these houses are on top of each other and the house I love is on a point so I can offend even more people! I love to listen to "Pink" at the top of her lungs at 11:30 at night and I really don't give a tinker's dam if that keeps you awake or even more if she offends you!
I am a yeller/screamer by nature. If you don't get my point when spoken at normal levels, let me turn up the volume!
Additionally, I get totally bent out of shape if someone shows up at my front door uninvited. If I am not expecting you do not ring the doorbell. I want to be alone! I bet the people in that neighborhood actually go in and out of each other's houses without so much as a voiced "knock, knock" as they push through the door.
I need a LOT of personal space. I like to turn up the volume and dance by myself and if I go deaf because of it... I experienced the trail..
So, it is still hard for me to stomach that as much as I want to be able to live in that house on the point I never could and be happy and have happy neighbors. I am once again looking for remote housing on remote lakes in remote woods where I will be right as rain! And I will be singing off key at the top of my lungs whenever the spirit moves me!

Amen, sister!! We could probably share 500 feet of lakeshore, I think....
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I am this way too. Even the thought of my own daughter visiting from Boston for a week has me in a mild state of distress.
I am such a loner that I have lost a couple of good friendships because I haven't kept in touch. In my mind I can pick up the friendship at any time and I am perfectly comfortable with that.....even if years have elapsed. It was a revelation to me that not all people feel that way, lol, and I have tried to be better about keeping in touch.
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